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I guess it's been a while since I've done this.

I'm starting to feel the pressure. Thank god I'm only taking 3 classes this quarter. What with accounting socials, accounting internship applications, accounting interviews which I probably won't get, and the accounting internship that I won't get either...um...I lost my train of thought.

You know, I'm strangely optimistic about getting an internship this summer. Even though my resume has nothing but my grades (which aren't that good) and BAY and VITA...both of which I have only been in for less than a year. Yes. Strangely optimistic. I keep telling myself that I won't get it...but for some reason I just feel like I will. Like the internship will fall magically out of the sky right into my lap.

I wonder how long I can be so self-confidently arrogant. Probably a few more weeks, until I realize all of my friends have internships and I still haven't got one. I'm thinking that's when it'll stop.

I've been calling people "liar" a lot recently. I wonder why. Maybe because I'm such a big slut. Seriously my fake relationships with everybody on the floor have become...very odd. I'm not sure if I'm crossing lines, or if I'm sending out weird signals or what. I dunno.

I miss the simplicity of high school. Everything was so black and white then...