It dawned on my today that senior year is coming up...and that it would be my last chance to do a lot of things. Seriously, I am going to miss college to death. Everything is so easily accessible here, but out in the workforce...
I can see myself being a hermit. I'm just a naturally hermity person.
But even if that is the case, I want senior year to be great. So at least when I'm a hermit I'll have some memories to look back on and say "hey, i wasn't always a hermit! biattchhh!!!"
Goal #1 - Find that special someone.
This is probably my most pressing issue. That I have lived for 21 years and still have yet to engage in even the slightest bit of romance is probably the most depressing part of my life. haha. It's my own fault, I know...but I had issues.
To be honest, the opportunity has presented itself during these last 3 years...just not the right kind of opportunity. For which I feel horrible for the people involved... Heartache sucks. I probably should have told them...I'm a coward. All I can do now is apologize. :(
Still, back to my original point, college is probably going to be the easiest time to meet people. Because they're right there. When I actually have to work...who am I going to meet? My co-workers? (ew accountants! *barf* haha jk) I don't go clubbing, I'll probably be a hermit...yea, things don't look too good.
Even if it's only for a year...or less...(probably less...wait no, probably not at all. sigh) I really want to - feel.
...I never knew I was so emo. Damn. I hate being emo.
Goal #2 - Stop liking people who can't like me.
I guess this sort of ties in with Goal #1...but whatever.
Seriously, this has been the most frustrating thing ever. And I always come out of it feeling like an idiot. BLEARGH.
Ok I have to go work...more on this later. Maybe.